We all have at times felt having negative feelings towards people who are close to us, but how do you deal with it?
I struggled with this for years, I had all these feelings and emotions inside of me but didn't have anyone I could openly speak to without being judged.
So what did I do? I just bottled them all up inside of me, but what I learnt with time, after being overwhelmed with all these feelings and emotions being built up inside of me was that I could no longer ignore them.
I had to acknowledge all these feelings, try to analyse them why I felt the way I did - was these feelings from the authentic me (my own thoughts) or was it my inner critic (and peoples opinions I had grown up with) that had made something big out of nothing?
I then decided to start journaling. The title of my page was 'Things and People that upset and bother me' - I know it's a long title, but for me, it summed up everything I needed to put on paper. When I found myself being side-tracked, I'd take a look at the title to be gently reminded of what I was doing.
Then one by one, I got out all the emotions and feelings down, I analysed them to see where this feeling came from to start with. Why did I feel so negative? Why did I feel hatred towards this person?
I went as deep down into my memory bank as I could, wrote down everything I could remember, spoke out loud (to myself) - I guess I just needed to 'hear' it. There were tears, smiles, 'aha' moments and more, it took me a good 1 month to deal with all of this - one suppressed feeling a day to deal with.
I acknowledged my feelings and emotions, I forgave the person who made me feel this way and I forgave myself for allowing me to feel this way and then I burnt the paper I had written on - I let go.
Now, I am not saying that I haven't felt those negative feelings since, they do come back now and then, I acknowledge these feelings and try to shift my mindset on to something positive.
For example; for the last couple of days I have felt a bit upset about the way a friend treated me, I have felt anger, I let myself feel this, I asked myself if this anger has anything to do with my authentic self (did I do anything wrong?) or is it my friend's insecurities and rudeness that made me feel this way.
Once I analysed where the problem was, which had nothing to with me - I took a few deep breaths and let it go. With each breath I took in, I was thinking of those feelings, with each breath out - I let those feelings, thoughts and emotions go.
I got myself ready to study, opened Facebook to post a quote when I got a reminder from Facebook that it's ( years since I joined. I scrolled through my memories; positive quotes, family photos, holidays, meeting celebrities and more - I had a big smile on my face!
Don't let one (or two) negative things/feelings ruin all the good experiences you have had. There's always something to be happy about, a simple thing as a walk in the sunshine, listen to a track which makes you excited, chocolate (my favourite!), a phone call to a friend you've been thinking of - the list is endless.
Tips on how to deal with negative feelings
- Recognise and name the emotion.
- Learn from the emotion.
- Snapback into the present moment.
- Remind yourself that the emotion will pass.
- Accept the emotion.
- Figure out what is causing the emotion.
- Tell yourself the emotion won’t last forever.
- Notice how emotion is affecting your behaviour.
How do you deal with negative feelings and emotions?
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